Have you ever felt that whenever you close your eyes,
Millions of images will just flashes through your mind?
Once those images appear,
It seems like you are using a scooper to scoop up the million pieces of your broken heart and leave millions tiny holes on it.
The wound are fresh.
Painful, but you can't scream out in pain.
Afraid.
Fears.
The feeling is like exactly how you sit in a roller coaster and it's going up and down.
 Holding on to your breathe when it reaches to the peak,
and you don't have the courage to scream it out.
This feeling suck.

The hell period is when you are not able to sleep.
Forcing yourself to bed.
This is called the torturing period.
Once you close your eyes,
Starting from A-Z.
Everything will falls in place and started to play like a video player.
You can't switch it off neither you can leave your seat.
The only way you can escape is to fell asleep.

Sometime the whole world don't understand only you do.

Time machine. Rewind. :\ please.


p/s: I need you now. :(


 

I know i have been saying " move on move on and move on " .
I am sick of myself with these words.
I have been thinking this whole day.
What am i holding on to?
How long can i hold on?
Have i not been surviving this 1month plus?
Breakdown?
Cry for help?
Force to turn back time?
No, Donna.
You did not do all these at all.
So why still holding on?(:
Life is short.
LIKE SO SHORT.
I should enjoy every moment at this age.
Not having sleepless night.
I should look out for more meaningful stuff to do then thinking and hoping all the time.
Though sometime is tough when there's flashes of memories.
The touch of his lips.
The way he hold my hands tight.
The time he hugged me to sleep.
The heart wrenching time we cried together.
The encourages he given when i am down.
When he helped you in your rj.
The time we have lunch together at the lawn.
The wide smile when we saw each other.
The surprises that he plan to bring me to places I want to go.
The good and bad times.
But , all this are memories.
Why hold on?
Is time to let go.
Right time.
Make sure i don't contradict myself anymore.
JYJY. (:



p/s : I deserve the best smile in the world. I know I do.

I AM SO TIRED YET I AM STILL AWAKE AT THIS TIME.
ROAR.
I MUST SLEEP SOON.
CHRISTMAS EVE WITH THE GIRLS!
YAY YAY YAY!
LET'S GET HIGH AND CRAZY
. CHRISTMAS IS COMINGGG.....
WOOOOO.
AND
  I have to work.
SIAN.