I know i have been saying " move on move on and move on " .
I am sick of myself with these words.
I have been thinking this whole day.
What am i holding on to?
How long can i hold on?
Have i not been surviving this 1month plus?
Cry for help?
Force to turn back time?
You did not do all these at all.
So why still holding on?(:
Life is short.
LIKE SO SHORT.
I should enjoy every moment at this age.
Not having sleepless night.
I should look out for more meaningful stuff to do then thinking and hoping all the time.
Though sometime is tough when there's flashes of memories.
The touch of his lips.
The way he hold my hands tight.
The time he hugged me to sleep.
The heart wrenching time we cried together.
The encourages he given when i am down.
When he helped you in your rj.
The time we have lunch together at the lawn.
The wide smile when we saw each other.
The surprises that he plan to bring me to places I want to go.
The good and bad times.
But , all this are memories.
Why hold on?
Is time to let go.
Make sure i don't contradict myself anymore.
p/s : I deserve the best smile in the world. I know I do.